Malancholy Downpour
There is somethin' 'bout the rain and them rainy days that makes me feel... I don't know... melancholic, nostalgic... A mix of good and awful feelin' that somehow makes me feel good. It's like a transcendent feelin' that intensifies if I have my headphones on.
I look around and I see on folks’ faces, gestures and looks these feelin’s I described. It’s like an invisible force that puts everyone in this unvoluntary symphony where ever’body acts the same without realizin’ ever’body around ’em is on the same exact state of mind.
Music for me it’s more than tones and notes… it’s like a gateway to a new dimension, a dimension where body and mind are interlaced but separated at the same time while the mind perceives the world in a different state where it feels like a dream and you are the major observer of this realm.
As someone who struggles with ADHD, procrastination is the major factor that keeps me from movin’, writin’, producin’… and music helps me so much with that and when it rains, for me it’s like a shower of feelin’s that somehow keeps my desires alive.
This project has been in my “drawer of creativity” for about 1 year and a half. Procrastination is the one to blame. I have started this project with the video and I told myself the best thing to do was to also freeze some of these moments with photos and write down my mind on it, but ever’ time I tried or told myself, “ok. Today is the day I need to finish this”, I just lost the gas that keeps the engine turnin’ and keep tellin’ myself that I would wait for the next rainy day to finish as I needed the right moment to capture the real feelin’, which in parts is true, but it was just one more excuse to procrastinate on that as the level of enthusiasm got lower and lower.
Well.. it’s been rainin’ for ages now and it seems that the rain will stay for a while and this has shown some sign of positivity.
I have finally found the desire to finish this project as the clouds roll in and rain falls. I just wanted to show to people that you can relate to this and realise no matter who you are, we all act the same in this melancholic downpour.
Jett Silva
